A Letter to A Survivor

From A Survivor Right now you are in shock. You’re broken, numb, and wondering what just happened. You’re questioning everything. You’re life no longer makes sense. You are desperately trying to undo what has happened, but you know that you will never be able to undo this. You understand that your life has been foreverRead moreRead more

Disappointment and Deliverance

Psalms 22:5 To You they cried out and were delivered; In You they trusted and were not disappointed. It’s funny how so many people use the term disappointed to describe relationships, careers, religion, friends, family, the list could go on. The definition of disappointment is feelings of sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopesRead moreRead more

For I Have Not Given You A Spirit of Fear…Do It Anyway

For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7 NASB I don’t know about everyone else, but I have read this verse many times and every time I tend to think, “oh that’s nice” and move on. In fact I tend to do thatRead moreRead more

Even Though I Walk Through the Valley of the Shadow of Death I Will Fear No Evil

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. Psalm 23:4 Evil is a very strong and powerful word. It is also a concept that many people choose to ignore and deny as if that will actually remove evil from existence. No one really likes to thinkRead moreRead more

Love and Relationships

Everyone wants to be loved, to be cherished, to matter to someone. I think that is the tender nature of each of our hearts, regardless of whether we are a woman or a man. God created us to desire love, friendship, and support, and as a result, our hearts and souls long for that intimateRead moreRead more

Unexpected Joy

Sometimes life can destroy your sense of hope and you think you will never be able to be happy again. The thought of experiencing Joy is even more impossible to imagine. What I’m slowly learning throughout this journey in life and healing is that Joy can be found in the most innocent of moments. EverRead moreRead more

End Of Watch

Two weeks ago I lost a coworker and a friend. His death was unexpected and left all of us trying to figure things out. One of the things done when an officer falls is an end of watch call. If you have never heard this done, I cannot express the pain and finality that comesRead moreRead more

Memories

Every year brings another chance for remembering. In the beginning, it would start in February. The knowledge of the coming April, the anticipation of the pain that is coming. It’s been 17 years since that day that changed my life. Over time, the anticipation, the terror of the memories has lessened and starts later on.Read moreRead more

Breaking Into Hope

My breath catches in my chest Unrelenting and Devastating The darkness threatens to engulf me …… Reality breaks Shattering into pieces Tiny fragments of the World I knew …… Blackness screams as My eyes begin to bleed Broken by the power of my pain Pouring out my sorrow …… Overwhelmed Rushing waves of grief RisingRead moreRead more

Hope

Destruction on every cornerWandering soulsEmpty streetsDead to every emotion The trauma draws themPulls towards the rubbleUnable to look awayHorrific yetCaptivating Suddenly a light appearsBrilliant hopeRiding behind warriorsServants to the King Bringing truth and loveTo the hopelessWandering soulsFind a home in Him